What’s going through my head….
There is so much going through my head right now and I just need to get it all out. First of all, why does society make it so hard to stay in a committed relationship? Now a days, everything is a temptation and with cell phones and Facebook the temptation is unreal. My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 and a half months, and yes I trust him, but everything I hear him even mention another girls name thats not my own, my mind goes back to my previous relationship where I was basically played, lied to, cheated on, and used for everything I was worth. I was put down and he said things to me that no human should have to here. He raped me, and basically just left me so broken I didn’t know how I was going to pick up the pieces. I finally did though and I found a great guy that I know will stay faithful, I just don’t know how to move past the whole freaking out stage. He has a new job and right now its only him and this girl working. I know I shouldn’t be nervous but I am and I know I should be super excited for him, but it’s hard knowing this girl is there. I guess it will just take some time for me to understand that its just work. He says constantly he isn’t interested in any other girl but me, and I should probably take his word for it. I love him a lot and I want him to be happy, and this new job does that. I just need to learn how to fully trust and learn that not all people are bad.
